Its been a while since i have stopped working; but honestly, there are moments when i would pause and say “what would have i become if i did not quit my job?”..for the longest time i believed that we could be better parents if we have fulfilled what our hearts truly desire. Little did i realize that being a parent; it will require us to take care of our kids …of our family that is the reality and reality bites; thinking about what our heart desires should already be a thing of the past. Being a parent, we should always (i mean it always) consider what our children’s hearts desire…what they really want…what makes them happy…what is best for them…in short being a parent is no longer about ME….its about THE KIDS…and so it is only when we accept this truth that we truly become a parent…
the catch? if you think you are not yet ready to give up your own dreams and hopes in exchange of the dreams and hopes of little kids.. (trust me when you have kids, they would have different dreams and hopes as yours)…then, wait…..wait for the moment when you are ….when you are ready to pursue and fulfill the dreams and hopes of your own kids…
Defending the poor and unfortunate,
caring with a heart so compassionate;
ah! a lawyer that’s what i will be,
back then as a little girl with glee.
Broadcasting news on TV,
doing it with mind so steady;
Ah! a broadcaster i see,
back in high school so carefree.
Pouring thoughts on paper,
scribbling late at night so dear;
ah! a writer i will,
back in college with free will.
Never become a lawyer really,
it wasn’t my dream actually;
twas a childish thing to wish,
no dirt to dish.
Broadcasting wasn’t even for me,
though i have the chance to be;
you see a surgery on the neck,
making it hard to speak.
Writer i may have always been,
creating stories every now and then;
putting actions into words,
screaming as i scribble with thoughts.
You see, there’s something i miss,
never imagined i enjoyed it with bliss;
caring for little souls as they grow,
motherhood is what makes me glow.
i have just finished reading the novel “THE GIFT” by Cecelia Ahern. (like Paolo Coelho i love her too so much, am actually done reading 5 of her other best selling novels.) Anyways, i was saying … at the end of the novel she said “Each second makes its mark on every single person’s life- comes and then goes, quietly disappearing without fanfare, evaporating into air like steam from a piping hot christmas pudding. Enough time leaves us warm; when our time is gone, it leaves us cold. It is time of which we do not have enough; it is time that causes the war within our hearts, and so we must spend it wisely.” So beautiful and so true….it reinforced and strengthened the truth that i have made the wisest decision ever…we barely have enough time to see our children grow and if we don’t spend it wisely with them we might one day be sitting in our rocking chair saying…”WHERE DID I GO WRONG?…WHAT HAVE I DONE…..WHAT HAVE I NOT DONE…” at least in the end whatever happens, and whatever kind of persons our children would become we know from the bottom of our hearts that we did everything to usher and prepare the way for them…
the best of luck to all mothers like me…and kids, believe me -when things go wrong, talk to the right person and that right person would always be your parent.