And so I love you

As i woke up without you

I did not know what to do

i lost the smile far more

cos i long for you so sure.

when i remember you by

 i wish i could fly

so i could be where you are

even we’re thousand miles apart.

As i walk on the street

i can see my heart dimly lit

for you my love, isn’t with me

and i much miss thee.

whenever i drive the car home

i long to hear your voice even on the phone

to hear your sweet i love

that i would answer with a shy i love you too.

as  i work on my table late at night

i imagine you hugging me so tight

but for now, i know, it would still not come true

and that reality makes me feel so blue.

later as i will go to sleep

i will still have the pain of missing you so deep

i dread the feeling of lying down on my bed alone

and all i want you is to be with me and be home.

P.S.  a father’s day thought to the one i really love…

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@ Starbucks

Your preferred cappuccino full cream;

I opted for americano non – fat decaf.

That’s how we started.

Over coffee.

At starbucks.

We talk a lot.

We make fun always.

We argue over trivial matters.

We talk nonsense.

we talk politics.

We talk religion.

My coffee won’t be complete

without you.

My starbucks won’t be wonderful

If not for you.

There are days when I am

extremely hype.

There are days when i can have a heart attack.

I could have too much coffee in a day,

cos every time you ask for one

I’d say yes without battling an eyelash

Even if it would mean i”ve reached my

coffee quota of the day.

There are nights when i can’t sleep.

I’d had too much coffee.

Or maybe because I just had too

much of YOU.

P.S.

random thoughts over two genetically beautiful couple  @starbucks

Thoughtfully

I slowly turned the lights

off…

A dwindling gesture of joy creeps in

A voice resounding within..

A desire so strong to manifest.

I lie down in bed..

A hole appears from somewhere

In the middle of nowhere…

Taking my breath away.

I slowly close my eyes…

A view appears up there

Of a future farther…

Of myself steadier.

And I intensely breath in…

Taking much more of reality

that…

the voice yells differently,

the hole leads to uncertainty,

the view tells insanity…

that…

one day my voice will be heard,

the hole won’t be empty,

and the view will be a sight…

a beautiful sight of what’s

within the real me.

P.S. a moment of coffee and me; a moment of peaceful solitude

It is POSSIBLE!

Spark from afar

It is possible to stay strong even if all the people are displaying their weaknesses.
It is possible to be so hopeful even if all that surround you are hopeless.
It is possible to keep calm when everyone else is in panic.
It is possible to believe when they are all doubting.
It is possible to forgive when it’s “valid” not to.
It is possible to extend grace even if your pride says no.
It is possible to stand again even if you were wounded countless times.
It is possible not to say hurtful words even if the situation prompts you so.
It is possible to advance even if everyone else retreated.
It is possible to bless even if all others are cursing.
It is possible to remain faithful, even if they all forgot.
It is possible to keep on loving even if you feel it’s not being returned.
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I Miss YOU More

Oblivious of the time

and around;

I longed for your

hold so tight.

Your hold that keeps my steady

gaze in place;

your hold that once made a

better me.

Incognizant of how i felt

wanting how much of you

i can take.

I never imagined it would be

this dark without you,

the darkness that seemed to

topple down my soul

the darkness i once ignored

for you are there

holding closely as i fear.

It seems just a while,

but no, it’s really been a long while,

a really long while

since you walked away

unnoticed

It numbed my mind;

froze my heart.

I can’t take you out of

my life.

I need to touch you again.

I need to hold you close in

my arms.

I miss you that’s what

I wanna say.

I love you, I want you

to stay.

It’s been four years DAD!

Four years and I am mad..

‘cos i can’t have you back.

P.S.

In memory of my dad who passed away fours years ago.

HAPPY FATHER’S DAY DAD!!!

I Miss YOU More

Oblivious of the time

and around;

I longed for your

hold so tight.

Your hold that keeps my steady

gaze in place.

Your hold that once made

a better me.

Incognizant of how i felt,

wanting how much of you

i can take.

I never imagined it would be

this dark without you.

the darkness that seemed to

topple down my soul.

the darkness i once ignored

for you were there

holding closely as i fear.

It seems just a while,

but no..it’s really been a while

a long long while since you walked away

unnoticed.

It numbed my heart.

It froze my heart.

I can’t take you out of my life.

I need to touch you again.

I need to hold you close in my arms.

I miss you that’s what i wanna say.

I love you, I want you to stay.

It’s been four years DAD!

Four years and i am mad,

‘cos i can’t have you back.

P.S.

In loving memory of my father who passed away four years ago.

HAPPY FATHER’S DAY PAPA!!!

TOUGHER

I am torn to do what

I have to.

I am saddened by how

much that would be.

A million times, a thousand moments…

I shouldn’t stopped…

I shouldn’t cried…

In those moments of gloomy days;

in those times of darkness…

I got you hold out of me.

I wanted more, I couldn’t be sure…

I wanted far, I can’t start.

A million times had passed;

A million opportunities at stake.

I chose to be numbed.

I preferred to be quiet.

I stayed humble.

I kept still.

Until then; until then..

I could stretch my wings

and fly freely…

freely in the meadows of

my so called life.

P.S.

When its tough…and everything else is tougher…all you have is a piece of paper and a cup of coffee.