A Stolen Goodbye

Day 13 NaPoWriMo

Today, I challenge you to write a non-apology for the things you’ve stolen.

For this prompt, I am writing this for my dad who passed away many years ago. He left. I never had the chance to say goodbye. He left. And I didn’t give him the chance to say goodbye either.  A stolen moment of a good goodbye.

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braving through the rain
on a windy morning
struggling in vain
only to see you gazing

running through the stairs
as I gasp for air
wishing you’d be there
with a smile to spare

entering a crowded room
my body began to shiver
looking for your face I roam
you’re there no more, I wonder

gushing through a deep sigh
truth began to unravel
knowing you’re not there, I cry
deep inside I die, as I travel

longing for one, just one day
can I have a moment, to give back
what I have stolen on that early May
a chance to bid goodbye, dad

still waiting…

 

 

 

Linking to Kate’s https://aroused.blog/2020/04/12/friday-fun-waiting-2/

Waiting for the lockdown to be over has made me discovered the joys of being alone; it entails a lot of good things than bad. So instead of wallowing over the pain of being alone, allow me to celebrate with you the joys of being alone.

1.The joy of Solitude

Being alone allows me to be by myself where my thoughts are my only companion.
We need a moment to reconnect deeply again into ourselves, listen carefully again into our inner thoughts, and touch tenderly back our souls. We travel more when we are alone because we reflect more. It is also the time when we began to realize that we can actually survive alone: alone in patches, alone in groups, alone in races, even alone in genders.

It will also be a time to celebrate the good in others, speak only for words of kindness and walk with the knowledge that though you are physically alone at the moment, some accompany you in their thoughts… you are not alone after all.

 

2. The joy of “Slowing Down”

We all know that life is not a race, nor some sort of a game. Being alone allows us to slow down and enjoy the little things around us- the coffee your drinking, the cute little nails that you have, the color of your skin, the blessings that you have: these will bring you the greatest of all joys and smiles because being alive should never be enough to make you happy. You need to slow down and detach yourself from all sorts of distractions and that can only happen when you are alone.

 

3. The joy of “Saving Money”

You see when you are alone you save a lot of money. For one being alone is a lot cheaper than spending time with others. You can just literally sit down and do just close to nothing. You can enjoy imagining things around you. When you are with other people at some point you will be spending money. Spend some time alone with yourself every now and then and you will eventually realize how much money you have actually saved.

 

4. The joy of “Simple life”

We might have already forgotten the beautiful scent of the sheets we slept in at night because we are too busy catching up on the day’s events and activities. Being alone will make us appreciate this and other simple joys life has to offer.

 

5. The joy of “Not hearing/listening to unnecessary information”

Let’s admit it, when we are with other people we tend to either talk or hear about things that aren’t really necessary in life. Some of our friends may be the ones unintentionally feeding us information that may directly or indirectly affect our sense of well being. And so being alone sometimes may unclutter our minds from all those unnecessary information that has been in store

6. The joy of “Staying more focused”

We have to remember that as human beings we should not only be focusing on completing certain tasks or certain goals. We need to focus more on ourselves. With the advent of technology, we have forgotten who we really are and what we are living for. Very few individuals are capable of understanding themselves as individuals  – most of us simply behave without understanding who we really are. Understanding oneself will only happen if we spend some time alone focusing on ourselves and our thoughts.

24 Comments

  1. calmkate says:

    ah your longing to say ‘goodbye’ … it’s been such a strong wish for years Mich that I’m sure he has heard you ❤

    Lovely positive of being alone … I'm sure I could add more but you say it so eloquently 🙂

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    1. michnavs says:

      I hope so too Kate…i really hope.☺☺☺

      P. S.

      The lockdown has been very useful for me..i hope it does too to others….i hope they find the good instead of just complaining and wallowing and getting frustrated.

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      1. calmkate says:

        it is their choice Mich, we cannot change their attitude, only they can 🙂

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      2. michnavs says:

        That’s right kate…that’s right…only that their choices are greatly affecting the majority…back home we have the highest number of covid cases in South east Asia with very low recovery rates and high death rates …and this is because most of my fellow country men chose to complain rather than obey..

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      3. calmkate says:

        then they will pay the price, so sad 😦

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      4. michnavs says:

        😑😑😑

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  2. Sadje says:

    This poem is so softly tender. Love it.

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you Sadje..i am waiting for your promt too…😊😊😊

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  3. Your poem brings tears. I believe he hears you, SweetMich, and he wants you to live a happy life. He is always with you in your mind and in your heart. ❤

    Yes, we must always look for and find the joys! Your list is wonderful and I am grateful for them, too! As much as I hate all of the suffering, separations, death, fears, ETC., I am grateful for the good people and positive things that go hand and hand with the negatives. We must cling to the positives! Be grateful! Keep helping!

    (((HUGS))) and thank you for sharing your beautiful heart with us!

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you Carolyn for your beautiful insights always…

      I am just hoping we could make a little difference in our very chaotic world today. I know that what we share through our words is just a little hope of light but as you said in one of your posts it is always better to have and find a little light amidst darkness..

      Keep safe always…and take care.

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  4. Nathi says:

    Heart-wrenchingly beautiful!

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    1. michnavs says:

      Oh Nathi thank you dear…

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      1. Nathi says:

        Pleasure is mine! And take care!

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  5. judeitakali says:

    A beautiful inspirational speech

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  6. I enjoyed your poem, but such a sad story… 😦 Also, your positivity is appreciated. 🙂 I vacillate between “this is fine” and “this is the worst!”

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you..keep safe in there

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  7. murisopsis says:

    A wonderful good-bye poem. I had the fortune to be able to sing my father to heaven. It was a sad but good passing. I believe my grieving would have been much harder if I hadn’t been able to say my good-bye. As for the benefits of this isolation – you got it right on all fronts. I have been able to connect more deeply with my husband and at the same time I value my friends and appreciate them more than when we were able to see each other when ever we wanted!

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you so much…i guess the hardest part always of having a love one die is not being able to at least say goodbye.. so many what ifs …but its been years, still that thought hunts me..but as Kate said, he sure have hear my goodbye already.

      I am happy you are making the most out of our current situation now..this is very hard but at the same time very rewarding if we will just see the silver lining..

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  8. Jade M. Wong says:

    *hugs*, Mich. One of the hardest things of losing a loved one is not being able to say goodbye properly. I hope one day in the far future, you and your dad will meet again. In the meantime, I’m sending lots of virtual hugs and well wishes 💜

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    1. michnavs says:

      It is indeed true Jade…thanks for the hugs…

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