“I tried so hard, and that’s the thing.
Trying didn’t help so, I stopped.
And it felt so good; missing you
without trying not to.”
And all this time I thought I mastered the art of concealing, the art of hiding what I really feel. I thought I learned the tricks and trade of smiling even when it hurts, of smiling even when it pains, of smiling even when it sucks. But I guess I will never be able to learn and master how not to miss you.
I tried and tried really damn hard. But trying didn’t even ease a single hurt or a single pain. Trying didn’t even make me smile the way I do when I am with you.
The smiles they see my love are all just for the show. It’s nothing but a senseless, artificial smile hiding the reality, the truth, and the gravity of how my heart aches.
Truth is, I miss myself when I am with you.
For Kate’s Friday – Fun:
https://aroused.blog/2020/10/10/friday-fun-artificial/ ( i missed this one last week, though)