I Stopped

“I tried so hard, and that’s the thing.
Trying didn’t help so, I stopped.
And it felt so good; missing you
without trying not to.”

And all this time I thought I mastered the art of concealing, the art of hiding what I really feel. I thought I learned the tricks and trade of smiling even when it hurts, of smiling even when it pains, of smiling even when it sucks. But I guess I will never be able to learn and master how not to miss you.

I tried and tried really damn hard. But trying didn’t even ease a single hurt or a single pain. Trying didn’t even make me smile the way I do when I am with you.

The smiles they see my love are all just for the show. It’s nothing but a senseless, artificial smile hiding the reality, the truth, and the gravity of how my heart aches.

Truth is, I miss myself when I am with you.

For Kate’s Friday – Fun:

https://aroused.blog/2020/10/10/friday-fun-artificial/ ( i missed this one last week, though)

45 Comments

  1. There can be so much behind the smile and the not smiling. You described the heart of missing someone perfectly.

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    1. michnavs says:

      Aww thank you so much.😊😊

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  2. calmkate says:

    this is super sweet Mich, that last line shows the depth of your devotion!

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you so much kate…i am so delighted you like it

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      1. calmkate says:

        you could never disappoint Mich πŸ™‚

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      2. michnavs says:

        ❀❀❀

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  3. kittysverses says:

    This is a superb piece of poetry, Mich. Enjoyed the poem, thoroughly enjoyed the ending. πŸ™‚

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you Kitty..

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      1. kittysverses says:

        You are welcome, Mich. πŸ™‚

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  4. Sadje says:

    Love the idea behind your poem Mich.

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you Sadje😊

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      1. Sadje says:

        You’re welcome πŸ˜‰

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  5. Very few can see the pain and emotions behind the smile Mich. The last line is simply so good!

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    1. michnavs says:

      Aw thank you Radhika..😍😍

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  6. Chris Hall says:

    This works so well, Mich!

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you so much Chris

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  7. Powerful writing, SweetMich! ❀
    (((HUGS)))

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you so much Carolyn😍

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  8. Northside says:

    🀍

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  9. Northside says:

    🀍

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  10. maria says:

    And it felt so good; missing you
    without trying not to

    …so much feels in this piece, Mich! It speaks of something we all can relate to. ❀

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    1. michnavs says:

      Awww thank you Maria😍😍😍

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  11. ivor20 says:

    You’ve captured the phrase “missing you” , precisely Mich… here’s a few lines out of one of my poems…

    “Missing you, like the moon of last night.
    Like my eyes with no sight.
    Between the rain and the pain.
    Between the calm and the storm.
    Between the waterfall and the pond.
    Between my heart and the beyond.
    Missing you, like a swallow with no breeze.
    Like a whale in the sea.
    Missing you, like the universe with no dark.
    Like the strings in a harp.”

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    1. michnavs says:

      Awww.. this is so beautiful Ivor ..thank you for sharing.

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      1. ivor20 says:

        I wrote the original poem ‘Missing You’ about six months after Carole had passed… πŸ’™πŸŒβ€

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      2. michnavs says:

        Ohhhh❀

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  12. So full of feelings and the ending….❀️❀️

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    1. michnavs says:

      Awww thank you Punam.

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      1. My pleasure, dear.

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  13. Written beautifully all to often we lose ourselves when we focus or become dependent on others.

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you Nanette always..😍😍😍

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  14. V.J. Knutson says:

    Funny how our smile often only fools us.

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    1. michnavs says:

      Exactly VJ..you are right

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  15. Your words are so full of missing someone and you have said it so profoundly, Mich. Lovely take.

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you so much Kamal..always.

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      1. You are welcome dear Mich πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™

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  16. -Eugenia says:

    This is so heartfelt and beautiful, Mich! I feel most can relate to the feelings you have expressed. ❀️

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you Eugi😍😍😍

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  17. Reblogged this on The Reluctant Poet and commented:
    Come and enjoy this!!!

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  18. murisopsis says:

    Excellence in every line! I love an epistle poem and this letter to your love is perfection!!

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    1. michnavs says:

      Aw, thank you Val, always… i am happy to see your lovely comments …

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    1. michnavs says:

      thank you so much…

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      1. mrswrangler says:

        Your welcome.

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