I Could Never Be Her

I Could Never Be Her

do you ever wish for one second you had not loved me?
‘cos i feel you do everytime i see regret in your words whenever you are disappointed
everytime i hear exhaustion in between your sighs when you are disheartened
and when the tides are against your will i hear loud screams in your silence.

do you ever see me as a shadow of the one you used to love?
‘cos i feel you do
whenever you look at me i know you want something else
something else that i am not nor i wish to be
i feel it in between your warm embrace
and your passionate kiss
i see it in between your broken smiles and empty gazes
i feel your longing, i feel it there’s no denying.

you’d probably be cursing me when you read this
oh! dear forgive me
geez i wrote a poem ’bout you again, a poem you won’t even be happy ’bout
truth is, this has long been overdue; i should have written this
the day you broke my heart, the day you crushed my grief-stricken soul
the day i died in silence, ‘cos even if i screamed for help, it was pointless
that same day i realized i could never be her.

never, because i dare to be remarkably different
and “I have untapped abilities waiting to be discovered.โ€

29 Comments

  1. Ahhh the ending was sweet!

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you so much..๐Ÿ’›

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  2. mrswrangler says:

    There are days we all ask those questions. Sometimes it is other causes like work and not you. Especially if a person is very moody.

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    1. michnavs says:

      Oh, so true and i can totally relate…thank you..

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      1. mrswrangler says:

        You’re welcome.

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  3. Sadje says:

    Some relationships beget these questions. I can understand the mental anguish.

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    1. michnavs says:

      Its so true Sadje…thank you so much..๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’•

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      1. Sadje says:

        Most welcome my dear

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  4. Reena Saxena says:

    Why does assertiveness throw others off balance? And when it is a step behind aggression…

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    1. michnavs says:

      Ahhhh …a question most of us often ask….thank you Reena for a very thought provoking prompt.

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  5. Reena Saxena says:

    Reblogged this on Reena Saxena and commented:
    I could never be her …… by Michelle Navajas

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ™

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  6. A great write, SweetMich! So happy to read the ending of your poem… ๐Ÿ™‚ โค๏ธ We should all always strive to be “remarkably different” and to have “untapped abilities waiting to be discoveredโ€. ๐Ÿ™‚
    (((HUGS))) ๐Ÿ™‚ โค๏ธ

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    1. michnavs says:

      Oh, so true some gave in to the pressure of the standard of the society forgetting who they truly really are….thank you Carolyn..

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you so much..

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  7. Just woww!! You bring so many realities to the forefront to be seen and felt. This one ends so powerfully, I love it.

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you so much Pragalbha…i .am so delighted to know you love this..

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  8. murisopsis says:

    Wow! Mich this one is so raw and the emotion drips like a poison…. I do hope it is entirely fiction! โค

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you Val…it is fiction and i love how you reacted๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’• …thank you so much..

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  9. A powerful poem dear Mich!
    ๐Ÿ’–
    “i should have written this
    the day you broke my heart, the day you crushed my grief-stricken soul
    the day i died in silence, โ€˜cos even if i screamed for help, it was pointless
    that same day i realized i could never be her.”

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    1. michnavs says:

      Oh, thank you for highlighting that verse..๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ™

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  10. What painful expectations. It is not fair to want someone to be anything other than themselves!
    Wonderful poem, Michelle! โค

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you so much Cheryl..๐Ÿ’•

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  11. unrequited love gives so many turns and twists. Nicely crafted!
    Layers

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    1. michnavs says:

      Oh, yeah so true..thank you…๐Ÿ’›

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  12. Anita Bacha says:

    I dare to be remarkably different- love this line, Mich! Bravo!

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you so much Anita..โค

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