“i know i can live without you i just don’t want to live a life without you anymore; i’ve been there, and it was hell.”
i’ve lost you over my youth. my pride and arrogance have taken a toll on me, and i let you go. let you go without fighting a damn good fight! and i regret it to death. i regret the day i walked away. i regret the day i let you walk away; the very same day you said, “i love you”.
oh, how my heart skipped a beat hearing those words. the words i so wanted to hear from you. but why? why did i let you go still? “too late, a hero,” ’twas all i can think of. so i let you go.
letting you go was the first kind of horrible pain i felt in my life. i was drowning in pain for days and days, and God knows how long. letting you go was the most heartbreaking and unfair thing i’ve done for myself. it felt like giving myself an outright death sentence. it was, and it will still be forever.
moving on was the hardest part. moving on was the most miserable part. but i did. i moved on gracefully. i moved on with a smile. i moved on with flying colors. i won! moving on indeed felt so good.
until.
until i realized that my moving on destroyed my being. ruined my mind. broke my heart. toppled down my soul. moving on led me to my ultimate self-destructive ways. i was broken. broken in several pieces.
yes, i have moved on. moved on with my life but not with you or from you nor from your love.
i need you desperately.
i was wrong for believing i could actually make it flawlessly ’till the end.
i was wrong.
“i know i can live without you i just don’t want to live a life without you anymore; i’ve been there, and it was hell.”
Michelle Ayon Navajas (born June 23, 1976) is a Filipino poet, writer, and educator. She is a Best-Selling international Poet known for her books reaching the #1 spot within days of their release. Her 8th poetry book, “I Am In Itself Poetry In The Dark,” went straight to the top of both the best-sellers list and new releases on Amazon on short notice. Her 7th poetry book, “It Ain’t Winning If Without You,” went straight to the best-sellers list on Amazon in less than 24 hours of release by pre-orders alone and eventually became the number Poetry Book on Amazon India on its actual release day, soon after the book rose to the best- sellers list as well in all other Amazon Markets worldwide.
Currently, Michelle holds the title of having 4 books published in a row to have made it to Amazon’s Best-Sellers List ("I Will Love You Forever, Too,” “After Rain Skies, 2nd Edition,” “It Ain’t Winning If Without You,” and “I Am In Itself Poetry In The Dark”) and 3 books on Amazon’s #1Hot New Releases/New Releases ("I Will Love You Forever, Too,” “It Ain’t Winning If Without You,” and “I Am In Itself Poetry In The Dark”.)
Her poetry appeared in several international literary magazines and anthologies such as Spillwords NYC, MasticadoresUsa, and MasticadoresIndia. Her poems “Holding Hands” was voted as Spillwords Publication of the Month for November 2021 and “Love Happens” was voted as Spillwords Publication of the Month for December 2022.
She is also part of the award-winning ensemble of authors in two Poetry Anthologies, that are both Amazon Best-Sellers: Hidden In Childhood and Wounds I Healed.
Graduated with a Master of Education majoring in English in the Philippines (University of San Agustin, Iloilo City). Michelle was a former college professor, teaching literature, speech & oral communication, creative writing, drama, and theatre arts. She is also a graduate of Mass Communications major in Journalism (Centro Escolar University, Manila).
Michelle is active in her writing profession and works as a freelance creative writer.
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Oh Mich this is so heartbreaking and heartfelt! Losing that one person you love dearly can wreck your chances of finding real love again! Thanks a lot for joining in
Beautifully expressed…but, oh, so so so sad.
Moving on is always difficult…even challenging when one is moving on to something new, good, better.
(((HUGS)))
❤️🙏❤️
michnavs 
Oh Mich this is so heartbreaking and heartfelt! Losing that one person you love dearly can wreck your chances of finding real love again! Thanks a lot for joining in
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Thank you so much too Sadje for the beautiful photo prompt.
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You’re most welcome
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Thank you🙏💕
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Pretty deep emotions here, Mich.
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Aw, thank you Maria💕🙏
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You’re welcome ☺️
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Very moving.
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Thank you so much🙏💕
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You’re welcome.
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So sad but beautifully written
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Thank you Lauren💕🙏
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A poignant read Mich… Sending love my friend ❤
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Thank you so much Sue🙏💕
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Beautifully expressed…but, oh, so so so sad.
Moving on is always difficult…even challenging when one is moving on to something new, good, better.
(((HUGS)))
❤️🙏❤️
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Thank you so much Carolyn💕🙏
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