Again

Again

i don’t even know what brought you back. you were somebody i thought would never return. never in a million years. never in my lifetime.

over the years, amidst all the midnight sorrow and morning grief, i sure knew that i had prepared for this day. this very day. that for some reason you’d come back, i am ready to walk away and never give you a chance simply. the chance to say a word. the chance to make a fool of myself again.

if ever you’d come back, it would be a hi and hello and goodbye. ah, no, you don’t deserve my hi, not even my hello or worse, my goodbye.
yes, i am wholly prepared for this.

and why not? you hurt me. you broke me. more than you probably ever know. you broke me into pieces. and i was left bleeding alone. i was groping in the dark. i was lost for years and years.

i didn’t realize i’d be able to pick up the pieces again and move on, move forward. yes, i am more than okay. i am more than prepared. i know it would be just another piece of cake, dealing with your return and sending you back to where you belong. oh, no, kicking you back exactly to how you left me.

yes that was the plan. that is still the plan.

until today.

damn!

i’ve lost it. lost the plan. lost the script. lost the spiel. lost everything.

why oh why does your “hello” feel so damn good? just why?
why oh why does your “how are you” feel like a melody to my aching heart?

so here i am again, falling completely, hopelessly madly in love with you just as much i loved you when we were young and crazy and restless.

‘cos truth is, i was never okay when you left. or when i went. or when we parted. whatever happened that day, we gave each other our final look of goodbye, i was never okay until today.

there is light again. there is color again. there is music again. there is joy again. there is rhythm again. there is hope again.

and there is me, in love again.

for Eugi’s Weekly Challenge:

23 Comments

  1. Oooooh…. This raises a huge red flag for me, Mich…

    It’s exquisitely written.

    ❀
    David

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    1. michnavs says:

      thank you so much David … truly humbled by your comment.

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  2. Sadje says:

    Such raw emotions, honestly written.

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    1. michnavs says:

      thank you so much Sadje..i always look forward what you have to say about my pieces. thank you

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      1. Sadje says:

        You’re most welcome!

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  3. Eugenia says:

    Wow! Mich, this is one of your best! Absolutely stunning piece! πŸ’•

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you so much Eugenia..i am so happy you like it

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      1. Eugenia says:

        My pleasure, Mich! πŸ’•

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  4. murisopsis says:

    Mich this sounds just like the cycle of abuse – broken, resolved to say never again, and then back into the frying pan… Wonderfully written especially since there is that aura of hope that this time will be different if only by the power of her love…

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    1. michnavs says:

      Aw wow..i love how you put on another layer on this Val. Your insights always gives me a fresher look at my pieces..thank you ValπŸ’•

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  5. Lauren says:

    This wonderful poem caused me to take deep breaths to absorb the emotions.

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    1. michnavs says:

      Aw, thank you so much Lauren..thank youπŸ’•πŸŽ‰

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  6. Lovely, simply LOVELY!

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you so much..thank you

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you Rupali

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  7. lovely encapsulated and shared Mich! πŸ’–πŸ’–

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    1. michnavs says:

      Aw, thank you CindyπŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

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  8. Such powerful write, SweetMich. It touches deep in my heart and soul. A perfect pairing with that painting. That painting evokes emotions…and your writing evokes colors.
    (((HUGS))) β€οΈπŸ’™πŸ’›β€οΈ

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you so much CarolynπŸ™πŸ’•

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  9. Loved this piece Mich… written from the heart ❀

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    1. michnavs says:

      Thank you so much SueπŸ’•

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