there’s no such thing as evil or good in the outlandish world of tragic politics you could start with all the good in your heart but pressure to be part of the game will start the minute you takes oath and swear to be of service.
for its a “dog eats dog” crazy game you gonna play it well in order to survive if you play the hero you will be the villain in the eye of your colleagues who’ve been on the game way before you came.
is there a way to end this cycle? you may probably wonder i too wondered for years and years i even went on out of the streets for a call for change and unity.
little did i know i waisted my youth joining a cause that never was meant to see the new light onced promised the ideologies endocrinated upon the minds of the young and vulnerable.
for years after my youth was gone i’ve witnessed the same people who were with me wanting for a change became part of the government elected and chosen to serve.
they seemed to have forgotten that once they were among the youths calling out for change, now that they have become political figures themselves they are exactly the government officials they once despised.
funny though, as if we forgot who they are once in their youths.
wish upon a star on a late October night outside a beautiful cabin log in a remote forest camp where darkness is blinding nothing to see but a million bright stars.
darker evenings, perfect excuse to get cosy together, a lovers must have maybe a long passionate cuddle on the sofa or a soak in a gigantic floral infused bath.
layered up in lovely autumn fashion, casual dresses, woollen tights, beautiful knitwear and jackets, top with a scarf you’re ready to go.
vibrant, warming colours, the reds, oranges, flaming yellows, the sunrises the smouldering fiery sunsets just take a minute and enjoy.
out in the woods searching aimlessly for that spot we once stood pouring out my heart, my tears memories of those special years.
Sylvia is the poet of the week Sylvia’s prompt guidelines
• Write a Cadralor poemabout anything related to Autumn that is important to you (such as food, holidays, traditions, religious celebrations, seasonal changes, etc.).
• The length is up to the poet. Here are examples of a shorter Cadralor and a longer one:
i wonder if the famous couple back in College made it through their wedding day, who knows they probably never even made it after College or if they did, are they happy now?
i wonder how the old couple across the street made it all through these years, they just celebrated their 50th wedding anniversary, how amazing ‘cos some didn’t even make it in their third year.
i wonder what will happen to the teenage couple down the corner of the cafeteria, they seemed so in love, so giddy, so happy, and so good together will they make it ’till tomorrow, or at least maybe the day after?
no one can tell what will happen next tomorrow is not even a guarantee to become the future is not also a definite scenario but we only got today; we only got the one we love today, at the moment, no one else.
so i’m gonna love like there ain’t a broken heart, i’m gonna live like there ain’t worries to claim, life is complicated, that’s for sure just as we can’t stop the rain from falling nor we can stop the storm from raging.
there is no guarantee of a rainbow after the rain damn! i’ve been drenched by rain a thousand times and there wasn’t a sign of a rainbow after i waited patiently but it didn’t come so i’m gonna love like there ain’t a broken heart we’ll all be broken anyway; there’s no guarantee.
i’m gonna love like there ain’t a broken heart i’m gonna live like there ain’t worries to claim after all there ain’t always a rainbow after the rain.
Gaslighting has become the latest emotional abuse trend. I wanted to call it a trend because I had never heard about it before.
Gaslighting, according to the dictionary, is to manipulate (someone) by psychological means into questioning their own sanity. Sounds terrible, right? But this happens to many; some don’t know their partners are gaslighting them. Unfortunately, the one gaslighting you may not also be aware of their behavior, and if they are, they refuse to believe.
In relationships, an abusive person may use gaslighting to isolate their partner, undermine their confidence, and make them easier to control. For example, they might tell someone they are irrational until the person starts to think it must be true. Sounds familiar?
Here is an interesting article about gaslighting that might help you process or deal with the abuse and hopefully quickly leave the situation. (https://www.healthline.com/health/gaslighting)
Someone who’s gaslighting might:
insist you said or did things you know you didn’t do
deny or scoff at your recollection of events
call you “too sensitive” or “crazy” when you express your needs or concerns
express doubts to others about your feelings, behavior, and state of mind
twisting or retelling events to shift blame to you
insist they’re right and refuse to consider facts or your perspective
Signs you’ve experienced gaslighting
Experiencing gaslighting can leave you second-guessing yourself constantly, not to mention overwhelmed, confused, and uncertain about your ability to make decisions on your own.
Other key signs you’re experiencing gaslighting include:
an urge to apologize all the time
believing you can’t do anything right
frequent feelings of nervousness, anxiety, or worry
a loss of confidence
constantly wondering if you’re too sensitive
feeling disconnected from your sense of self, as if you’re losing your identity
believing you’re to blame when things go wrong
a persistent sense that something isn’t right, though you can’t identify exactly what’s wrong
a lingering sense of hopelessness, frustration, or emotional numbness
These feelings tend to come from what the other person says or implies about your behavior. For example:
“You seem so confused lately, and you keep forgetting things. I’m getting a little worried.”
“You know I wouldn’t say these things if I didn’t care, right?”
This mask of concern can leave you even more convinced there’s something “wrong” with you.
Gaslighting can also show up as changes in your behavior. You might find yourself:
making choices to please others instead of yourself
frequently questioning whether you said the right thing or made the right choice
making excuses for the person gaslighting you to family and friends
lying or isolating yourself from loved ones to avoid conflict
constantly reviewing your words and actions to make sure you’ve done everything “right”
spending little or no time on the activities or hobbies you used to enjoy
Why do people do it
According to Stern, people often gaslight because being right allows them to validate themselves. When gaslighters feel threatened, they need you to believe and support their version of events in order to maintain their sense of power and control.
Gaslighting can also happen when someone believes their narrative is more valid than someone else’s, says Ana De La Cruz, a licensed marriage and family therapist in Florida.
Persuading someone else to question their own reality, then, can leave them with a sense of superiority, De La Cruz explains.
i hope you remember the smell of the roasted coffee in our favorite place where millions and millions of stories from miles and miles away where connected and bridged together over a single shot americano and you with your favorite cafe latte overloaded with sugar i hope you remember how our stories made coffee time not just incredible but one hell of a kind.
i hope you remember the first coffee drive-thru we had with me over the cloud and over the moon, trying to grasp the feeling of finally being seated right next to you after years and you are speechless for the first time in your life, maybe and you can’t take your eyes off me.
i hope you remember the countless times we made our coffee cold with me over my endless out-of-this-world story-telling spree and you couldn’t stop laughing at all of my epic fails which i graciously claimed to have handled so well with pride but you’d refute it by saying, ’twas funny but humiliating.
i hope you remember how we bonded over that sweet, nutty aroma smell with me proudly proclaiming i could live with coffee and coffee alone and you looking disgusted and disappointed ‘cos you’d rather hear me say i could live with you and you alone.
i hope you remember, ‘cos i will always remember us that way the smile, the laughter, the tears, the longing, the wanting the passion, the love, and the hope for forever i will always remember us that way.
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you want answers to your never-ending questions you want clarity as to why things happened the way they happened would it really matter now if i gave you answers to your questions? would it make a difference if we cleared the air directly after years?
time heals all wounds, they say, but it’s obviously never true for us the wounds you kept for my unannounced departure the wounds i kept for your unwanted and agonizing silence the wounds we kept haunt us, no matter what.
it’s better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all well, Tennyson might take offense if i say what good is love if you can’t have it all by yourself, call yours and yours alone what good is love if it will leave you hurt, broken, and in pain?
true love, great love; they say you never get to forget, come what may i damn will agree, for despite the wound, despite the pain despite the hurt, despite the brokenness, i sure know without a doubt i love you with all my heart, with all my mind, with all that i am from the very start, and i’m petrified ’till my last breath.
‘cos truth is, it’s that easy-breezy stupendous feeling that makes me wanna jump off the trail again, forget the “what ifs” and “what happens” next let go of the hurts and the pains, release all the tensions and apprehensions ‘cos truth is, i only get to feel this with you so, let’s dive in and be crazy in love.
i wonder how it feels to kiss you boy, i did just as you wondered without hesitation, without inhibitions without second thoughts no words, there was complete silence.
i wonder how it feels to kiss you now you left me wondering too ‘cos little do you know that i’m in love and petrified for the first time and probably the last time in my life.
i wonder how it feels to kiss you was my best memory of you for years and years even decades after intentionally written or a poetic bait it doesn’t matter for i too wondered.
i wonder how it feels to kiss you was the beginning of the end of you wondering and me hoping that somewhere in the middle of the busy streets in Manila love will finally happen.
i wonder how it feels to kiss you it happened, you stopped wondering i stopped hoping, ‘cos indeed no matter what happens there is no denying that in between our pretenses love happens.
“words that should have been heartwarming melodies turned out to be a devil’s chant the limbs of my body exposed fears giving away whispering breaths of agony hidden in my eyes are pleading looks of terror with the drop of his pants comes the collapse of my world the collapse of my future the collapse of my dreams.”
from my #1Amazonbestseller book “I Am In Itself Poetry In The Dark.”
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