I’ve traveled to many places wondered and wandered over life, love and “what could have been’s” I was once lost
lost in the wilderness lost in the crowd lost in my own pursuits of “happily -ever- after” of “dreams-do-come-true”
somewhere along the way I was stuck, stuck and couldn’t find my way, navigating was harder than ever re-routing maybe the only way, but even then road blocks were heavier, mightier than any of my will power
somewhere in between heavy rains and clouded skies, beyond the horizon just beneath the rainbow where they say a pot of gold rests, where no man has ever ventured, I found, not a pot of gold
and, together we got lost over gentle kisses and sweet embraces over smiles and sighs and reliefs over pieces of thoughtful memories over love and dreams and plans
let’s be lost together, forever in love, for it is the best gift ever
’twas not so long ago I came to know you over exchange of small talks and “hi” and “hello” how long has it been? I can’t even remember then but I remember you in days when I’ve run out of things to do and my muse is in an ultimate unannounced break I remember you over galleries of photographs and stunning images of people, of nature, of even the most insignificant photo I remember you over wonderful thoughts about life and motherhood about living the daily extraordinarily I remember you and you reminded me of a wonderful and brilliant poet, Helene who’s soul have joined the rest of the lovely angels and magnificent minds and thinkers of writers and poets who have gone ahead of us in heaven and so today I am pretty sure Helene is up there waving and smiling as she warmly joins me in saying “happy birthday, dear Sadje” I remember you always
I felt your pain your agonizing pain among the creases in your forehead in between the blinking of your eyes and even as your bedimpled face smiles the smile I always remembered gentle and sweet tugs the heartstrings of my soul lulls me to sleep and tucks me to bed but your pain your pain I can feel keeps me awake all through the night and even with my eyes closed I still see it I see your pain In your eyes
when you smile
I want to be the reason you smile with your eyes again
if I can create a life for you, I will paint you a life of many colors in different strokes I’d first color it red, for I want it filled with love and passion of prosperity and happiness with lots of good luck too then I’d splash a bit of orange to make your life more vibrant and energetic and since it is the color of autumn, it will be a constant reminder to you of the promise of a new life and a new beginning that autumn brings, wouldn’t that be wonderful? yes, it is dear, as that’s how much I love you and oh, by the way, I’d put a dash of yellow too to bring sunshine and happiness to you always for what is life if you will not be happy all the time my painting sounds magical and whimsical but I guess, that’s just how it is my love, for I love you with all the magic in the world I’d probably sprinkle some cool colors too like green, blue, and purple they are the colors of night, of water, of nature, and are usually calming, relaxing because at the end of the day I wish you peace, love, and solitude even in the silence of your heart and in the comfort of wherever the world will bring you, and when at night you go to bed my love you will be reminded that life, your life is more colorful and meaningful with me around for what else is life if not shared with the ones who makes it more vibrant more colorful and more meaningful but for now, let me put my brush at rest and see what tomorrow’s color maybe.
I will be very slow in reading and commenting to all of your posts. My internet connection from where i am right now is really very frustrating. Navigating from one site to the other or simply downloading documents is really a struggle.
i miss my regular engagement and interaction with you all.