Don’t

Don’t bullshit me with your
“I love you’s”
None of them bears witness
To how i grieve
Of witnessing you walk away
Everyday.

Don’t fool me with your
“I miss you”
Nothing compares to the pain
You inflicted on me
For being near yet so far away.

Don’t lull me with your
“I wanna be with you”
Nonsense, though
For up and till now you
Remain a fragment in my dreams.

Don’t say you love me…

 

P.S.

An irrational (maybe for some) poetic rant of a woman in a coffee shop.

 

Silenced (Triple Haiku)

Adored you i wept
In the silence of my heart
I whispered and sighed

I sat beside you
Not a word even to say
Let me walk away

I will thrudge through there
That long narrow road, I’ll be
Walk with me my love

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Goodbye Zoe (Poem for Zoe )

I am reblogging this post..Zoe just passed away today after 8 months of fighting for her life she is finally now in heaven.
My daughter and the rest of her friends are saddened by this.

May you watch over us Zoe…

michnavs

I have a very heartbreaking story to tell. My youngest daughter who is 12 years old has a bestfriend of 6 years. Her name is Zoe.

Zoe has been diagnosed with ovarian cancer (yes a 12 year old girl with an ovarian cancer).. she underwent surgery last February 2016. Unfortunately, her situation worsened since then. After several chemotherapy sessions, blood transfusions and other medical procedures; the doctors decided not to go through another surgery anymore.

Currently, Zoe has gone bald. There has been water retention in her body making her look like a pregnant young woman.

I cannot imagine how her family is coping.

As a mom myself i am deeply saddened by this. My daughter and Zoe literally grew up together.

This afternoon my daughter ask me to critic a poem she wrote for Zoe.

ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU

No matter what happens
No one will forget you
No…

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Hear Me

Hear Me
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Hear me as i cry
For your sweet agonizing ray
Though i beg the sun to shine
As you stay by in thine.
Oh, rain came weeping down
As blood oozes
Thru my vein, yearning for
your
Sweet embrace.

No, not this time
Never my love,
For no one is bound to know
How prepared i can be
When you will go
And forever i am doomed.

Please, don’t.
Never go.
Stay!
Just for a moment.

I know i promised
I’ll let you go,
When summer rain ends.

Now i beg, rain don’t go!
P.S.

I thought my summer rain poetry obsession  (sort of) will end as soon as the first ray of sun comes out; i was wrong, because like the rain that floods the streets, my mind is flooding too with heart -wrenching ideas…..ahhhh summer rain i just can’t let you go

The Versatile Blogger Award

 The Versatile Blogger Award

I’d like to thank Jade for this award..”thanks Jade”

You guys know the rules by now, I’m sure—this award asks for seven facts about yourself…let’s get started.

I, Mich..

1. Am a super coffee fan…need i say more? It perks up my day..

2. Sleeps without a pillow. I dooze off better that way.

3. Have a dog…a dobberman, named after a famous coffe and donut shop in Asia Jco.

4. Used to teach. I started off as pre -school teacher then i resigned as a college teacher.

5. Hates insects especially mosquitoes…it freaks me out.

6. Have been trying to learn baking…hehehe..i am getting there ..

7. Am missing my dad so much..

In the spirit of celebration and virtual partying, I’ll also pass along the Versatile Blogger Award to the following Versatile Bloggers

Yasshi over at Autumnwith you

Harbans over at Innerthoughts

Mona over at Mona_Khaan

Carly over at myhearinglossstory

Og over at Oglach

Ginger over at Aroused

Brian over at Brian Lageose

No pressure to accept, and if I missed anyone who wants to participate, feel free to grab that award below and give it a new home on your blog!versatile-blogger-award

The Rule of Eleven (aka The Blue Sky Tag)

I first read about this from Jade of Jade M. Wong then her site brought me to Rose’s blog, and Rose made it as an “open tag”. As i was about to answer it myself i saw Nj tagging me.

So i am taking on both.

Rose’s questions:-

Describe yourself in ONE word.

Romantic

When and why did you start blogging?

I started my first post back in April of 2013. I my first official WordPress poem was written on a plane on the way to Singapore.

I started at WordPress, honestly because i don’t know what to do with my creative mind since i resigned from my teaching job then. I didn’t expect i’d stay long; but the responses were overwhelming that it kept me goin…

Is there a person that you look up to? Who is it and why?

 

My father. HE’S THE BEST!!!!!!

What’s the perfect pair for a book, is it coffee or tea?

Without a doubt COFFEE… apart from my books, my pen and paper; coffee has been my constant companion for the longest time.

Aside from blogging, name one activity that you truly enjoy.

Reading, it transports me to different places and sometimes different dimension. It made me wanna be the better version of myself.

In your bucket list (or if you will have one), what country/place will be on your top spot?

Paris….i’d love to go there and shop and write poems while having coffee in a cafeteria along the sidewalks where i can see, smell, hear and breath people from all walks of life from different parts of the world.

Do you have a phobia? What is it?

I don’t know how you call it.. but i hate tiny animals that crawls…. example worms, baby snakes..

What’s the weirdest wish/hope that you have secretly said?

Nothing so far.. i mean i don’t think its weird to wish/hope no matter how weird it may seem to others.

What is your favorite season and why?

 

Summer…its fun when the sun is out all the time.

What is that one book that touched you in a very special way?

 

“Have a Little Faith” by Mitch Albom. It was about the unusual request of an old man from the author to write/deliver his eulogy.  Please note, the man was still alive when he asked this. It baffled me at first but as i read through it made me re discover my purpose; about losing and finding what we’ve lost, and most especially it made me reconsider my own faith.

What’s your favourite song lyric? Why?

Currently i am loving the song of lady gaga “i’ve got a hundred million reasons to walk way; but baby i just need one good one to stay”

It gives us so much hope ….that amidst the chaos of the world, maybe one good deed will make us hold on.

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Nj’s questions:

What is your name and the name of your blog? Why did you choose it as your blog name?

Michnavs ; that’s the name of my blog. is it my real name? i can’t tell..i am yet to process the idea of coming out into the open but i was honestly inspired by what Jade did though. it was brave of her to finally come out when she re – introduced herself. will i do the same? i can’t tell. maybe in time i will, but for now i love to have my virtual self hanging around your wp readers. But you guys call me Mich so its close to that.

What, according to you, is your best quality? Why is it so?

As an adult human being (just to assure you all i am human, hahaha) i am very generous of my time and my expertise…. I see people around (with all due respect, though) who are capable of helping and of sharing even their thoughts but they’d rather keep quiet. they choose never to care or be bothered at all, after all they would say “it’s none of my business”. it could be really none of your your business but i believe when we are asked then it becomes your business. and i think we need to be generous of our expertise and share it to anyone who needs it. who knows it could go a long way.

Choose a movie that describes you and tell us how?

I believe in happy endings and fairy tales. So any movie ending on a happy note would best describe my disposition in life and my persona. I believe in fairy tales…its like dreaming; and dreams to come true right? we just to make it happen. I may sound weird but i have been through a lot and i can say, it is my belief in “happy endings” that made me get through it all. Trust me i have my happy ending. 

What’s your favourite dessert? And why?

Cheesecake- its a mixture of different tastes and texture. Just like life. It could be a little of everything…you pick up the best,  spit out the bad.

Are you a forest or a beach person? What is it about your choice that you like?

None of the above actually. I’d rather sit in the comfort of my home, read and write or sit in a coffee shop. I was never been to a forest…will i try? i don’t know but the idea of crawling insects and mosquitoes freak me out. .. of course i’ve to to a beach (es)… did i like it as much as i love being at home or in a coffee shop? nahh…no.

If you were born as a tree, which tree would you pick? And why?

A bamboo tree. Its flexible and cannot be easily toppled down by even the strongest wind. i wanna be like that… i wann be as flexible and strong as a bamboo tree.

If today was your last day, name one person you’d like to say something to? What would you tell him/her?

It would be my dad. That i am sorry i wasn’t there when he had to bid us all goodbye.

Which is your favourite childhood game?

i honestly never played outdoor as a young girl.  really. unusual?? i know.

If you could be an inanimate object, which would you pick? And why?

A pen. I want to bravely put into words the thoughts of others who are afraid to speak. i want to create life as i spill every word through my ink.

What is your favourite mode of travel?

I drive.. so it must be my car. its my second home

Who is your 3AM person? And why?

It’s still my dad, and would forever be my dad.

 

P.S.

So there you go…. done.. i will make this an open tag too..i would love to get to know you all guys so please hop in and answer the following questions:

  1. What is it about blogging that you loved the most?
  2. Have you met anyone from WordPress? if yes, tell us about it.
  3. What is your thoughts about full time blogging?
  4. Who/what influenced/inspired you to blog?
  5. What was your first official WP piece (poem, story, essay etc.)? Tell us about it.
  6. Who is your favorite author and why?
  7. If you will be a piece of cake, what kind of cake would you be and why?
  8. Would you rather be a president or a famous scientist, why?
  9. If you are to popularize a “pick up line” what would it be?
  10. Pick a song which best describe your current love life, tell us why.
  11. What is your greatest dream?

Run Away

Run Away

I.
I hold on really for so long
But that damn feeling, so strong
I don’t know why but i tried
To run away and hide

II.
I run my thoughts on you
Wishing i’ll get over through
But its so hard, really tough
You have tied my heart real tight

Chorus

I wanna run away and hide
I will run away till i get tired
Of longing and of wanting
Of wishing and of hoping
Cos baby please be mine
Even in the silence of my heart

III.

I saw you pretty close this time
You were stairing at me like your mine
Intensely wanting as i was waiting
Behind me is your beloved coming

Repeat chorus

Bridge

So i run away and hide…but i keep coming back ….into the silence of my heart….

Into the silence of my heart…

 

 

P.S.

This is still a continuation of the cafeteria story…from my previous post