Again

Again

you want answers to your never-ending questions
you want clarity as to why things happened the way they happened
would it really matter now if i gave you answers to your questions?
would it make a difference if we cleared the air directly after years?

time heals all wounds, they say, but it’s obviously never true for us
the wounds you kept for my unannounced departure
the wounds i kept for your unwanted and agonizing silence
the wounds we kept haunt us, no matter what.

it’s better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all
well, Tennyson might take offense if i say what good is love
if you can’t have it all by yourself, call yours and yours alone
what good is love if it will leave you hurt, broken, and in pain?

true love, great love; they say you never get to forget, come what may
i damn will agree, for despite the wound, despite the pain
despite the hurt, despite the brokenness, i sure know without a doubt
i love you with all my heart, with all my mind, with all that i am
from the very start, and i’m petrified ’till my last breath.

‘cos truth is, it’s that easy-breezy stupendous feeling
that makes me
wanna jump off the trail again, forget the “what ifs”
and “what happens” next
let go of the hurts and the pains, release all the tensions and apprehensions
‘cos truth is, i only get to feel this with you
so, let’s dive in and be crazy in love.

again.

For Moonwashed Weekly Prompt
https://amanpan.blog/2022/10/18/moonwashed-weekly-prompt-stupendous-october-18-2022/

Love Happens

Love Happens

i wonder how it feels to kiss you
boy, i did just as you wondered
without hesitation, without inhibitions
without second thoughts
no words, there was complete silence.

i wonder how it feels to kiss you
now you left me wondering too
‘cos little do you know that i’m in love
and petrified for the first time
and probably the last time in my life.

i wonder how it feels to kiss you
was my best memory of you
for years and years even decades after
intentionally written or a poetic bait
it doesn’t matter for i too wondered.

i wonder how it feels to kiss you
was the beginning of the end
of you wondering and me hoping
that somewhere in the middle
of the busy streets in Manila
love will finally happen.

i wonder how it feels to kiss you
it happened, you stopped wondering
i stopped hoping, ‘cos indeed no matter
what happens there is no denying
that in between our pretenses
love happens.

For David’s Weekly Prompt. i used option #2

https://skepticskaddish.com/2022/10/19/w3-prompt-25-weave-written-weekly/

Option #2: Write about an experience that gave you the chills, any form permitted.

Note: this is the kind of experience that gave me the best kind of chill ever.

I Relinquish

I Relinquish

my years of restless nights
the pain i hide inside
the smile i keep
to camouflage
with the scars, i nurture
i relinquish
to the universe to
carry the burden
so heavy.
every single spark of hope
i carry around
that keeps me goin’,
i relinquish
to the moon and back
and let the sunshine
take away all my pain
let the moonlight
cast upon all my sorrows.
i relinquish
i surrender
i’m done.
and so maybe, just maybe
if you give me a call
i sure would surrender
to love’s final call
for i would not want anything
but you.
i surrender.

for Sadje’s WDYS

https://lifeafter50forwomen.com/2022/10/17/what-do-you-see-156-october-17-2022/

Seventeen Again

Seventeen Again

and i am seventeen again

feels like yesterday ‘though ages ago

that you gently held me by my hand

as we walked past the busy street

of the University belt’s crowded intersection

i am seventeen again with you

holding my hand for real.

and i am seventeen again

feels like yesterday ‘though decades ago

that you kissed me sweetly, framed by the door

it wasn’t Christmas no mistletoe, but we kissed

i am seventeen again with you

kissing me tenderly for real.

and i am seventeen again

feels like yesterday ‘though years ago

that we passionately shared our love

amidst the blazing Manila skyline

i am seventeen again with you

manifesting your love for real.

feels just like the first time.

for Reena’s Exploration Challenge

https://reinventionsreena.wordpress.com/2022/10/06/reenas-xploration-challenge-251/

The word prompt for this week is

Jamais Vu

It is the opposite of Deja Vu, jamais vu involves a sense of eeriness and the observer’s impression of experiencing something for the first time, despite rationally knowing that they have experienced it before. Jamais vu is sometimes associated with certain types of aphasia, amnesia, and epilepsy. Source: Wikipedia

Mine

Mine

my heart cries its own tears
broken by life’s iniquity
but as the misty cloud clears
pain becomes triumph
despair becomes hope
madness becomes love
my heart shed
a tear no more
with triumph to win
with hope to see
with love to conquer
with your hand
holding mine.

for Sadje’s WDYS

https://lifeafter50forwomen.com/2022/10/10/what-do-you-see-155-october-10-2022/

Autumn in Manila

Autumn in Manila

beautifully slowly changing
leaves from vibrant green foliage
to bloody blood reds, oranges,
yellows and purples.

multi-colored tender leaves
falling gently upon the window pane
looks indeed like our love growing
bursting in a million more ways.

cooling temperatures, darkening nights
much like our kisses and embraces
framed by the door, a taste of love’s
first vibrant feast that afternoon.

it felt like autumn in Manila in February with you.

https://amanpan.blog/2022/10/04/moonwashed-weekly-prompt-autumn-october-4-2022/

Let Me Be

this photo prompt gave me a sense of serenity and solitude, which most of us have longed for. this photo reminds me to love and live life to the fullest without hesitations, compromises, or negotiations. after all, when we love and live our lives this way, we will find that serenity and solitude we’ve wanted.

here is prose poetry to celebrate love without the need to adhere to certain norms and requirements of society.

Let Me Be

let me be the one to love you like it’s your first time to love. like it’s your first time to learn the tricks and trades of young and restless love. like it’s your first time to know the ins and outs of two souls, two hearts coming together as one.

let me be the one to love you like it’s your first time to shed a tear over your greatest broken heart, coupled with a fear of never ever feeling the touch of my hand and the taste of my lips. let me be the one to make you think that losing a loved one is not only devastatingly painful but is the most stupid thing one could ever do.

let me be the one to love you without the need to adhere to the crazy whims and caprices of how a man should love a woman; of how a man is obliged to give all that he has and all that he have to the woman of his dreams. let me be the one to love you without settlements to compromise, values to give up, families to let go, friends to release, plans to postpone, life to suspend, and self-worth to lose.

let me be the one to love you without any selfish motives or personal benefits. let me be the one to understand you with compassion. let me be the one to open my mind and release the judgments while talking all the time.

let me be the one to love you and forgive you quickly. let me be the one to love you, believe in you, be loyal to you, and tell you why i love you every single moment.

let me be the one to love you this way.

please let me be.

https://lifeafter50forwomen.com/2022/08/29/what-do-you-see-149-august-29-2022/

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Breathless

Breathless

how i adore your beaming smile that Monday morning, breathless i was.

how i love your passionate eyes that afternoon by the cafeteria, breathless i was.

how i admire you your abilty to think that mid Juy in a debate, breathless i was.

how i appreciate your gentleness that morning
by the avenue, breathless i was.

how i cherish our charming banter that early January, breathless i was.

how i fall for your tender lips that afternoon by the doorway, breathless i was.

breathless i am, i surrender.

breathless i am, decades after.

breathless i am, forever.

for Eugi’s Weekly Prompt

Moonwashed Weekly Challenge – Breathless – August 16, 2022

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Again

Again

i thought i’m healed from all the wounds of my bruised days
but today i was reminded that only scars heal; wounds don’t; they never will
and you know what’s funny? you reminded me of them one by one,  every pain, every trauma
it takes one great love to ease down my brokenness
sadly though, that same great love cuts the same wound deeper, more painful
now i’m left waiting to heal my own
again.

👉my 7th Poetry book, “It Ain’t Winning If Without You,” releasing 15th August, worldwide on all platforms and in all formats.

👉This is my response to A. J.’s prompt guidelines

• Write a poem of no more than 12 lines;

• It must include the word “waiting”

W3 Prompt #13: Wea’ve Written Weekly

https://skepticskaddish.com/2022/07/27/w3-prompt-13-weave-written-weekly/

These Times

These Times

i would never forget the times
i am begging for you to stay
i am grateful for those times
you left me waiting; uncertain
i know how your heart breaks
more than mine
but that taught me
love’s greatest lesson
to look beyond what eyes can see
to feel loved beyond
hugs and kisses and warm embraces
especially at times when you are near me
yet a single glimpse is not possible
these times when love is love
regardless of and no matter what
these times when love is love
even if it felt like a glassful of water
splashed, suspended in the air
not knowing when to fall
not knowing how to land
unbroken
unshattered
unhurt
these times.

For Sadje’s WDYS

https://lifeafter50forwomen.com/2022/06/27/what-do-you-see-140-27-june-2022/