In Heaven

In Heaven

i never got the chance
to see you smile
but i got you a name
i never got to know
how you would become
but i know you’d be great
i never got to hear you speak
but i know you’d be perfect
in everything you’d wanna be.

i never got to embrace you hello
for i had to let you go
before you even know
the world outside
is waiting for you
but He has other plans
so i just hope one day
i get to see you smile
i get to call you
by the name i chose
i get to hear you speak
and give you
the most endearing
embrace.

one day soon
in heaven we will be.

if you are a regular to my blog you would know that apart from abuse and violence i am also creating awareness on mothers/women experiencing loss of a child during pregnancy or in most common term;  miscarriage. i’ve written poems about miscarriage and how women should have the much needed support during this time. we all know that miscarriage is something we don’t usually talk about and at the same time we also know that these mothers/women are hurting and grieving inside.

recently, i came across articles and stories of women experiencing ectopic pregnancies.

according to  https://www.mayoclinic.org  an ectopic pregnancy occurs when a fertilized egg implants and grows outside the main cavity of the uterus. an ectopic pregnancy most often occurs in a fallopian tube, which carries eggs from the ovaries to the uterus. this type of ectopic pregnancy is called a tubal pregnancy.

sadly though a baby almost never survives an ectopic pregnancy. there have been extremely rare and unusual cases in which a baby has survived, but the odds are 1 to 3 million. these few cases typically happen outside the fallopian tubes in the abdominal cavity where blood supply is rich(https://lifelinepregnancyhelp.org ). these cases unknown to us many is also very heartbreaking for mothers, knowing that there is a growing child is something to celebrate and yet, at some point you have to decide whether or not to take the risk and go on with the pregnancy and let nature takes its course or do what’s suppose to be medically appropriate for both the mother and the child.

the dilemma now for the mother is : will she wait until it dissolves naturally? what if it doesn’t will she take on the suggestion of the medical experts to take on what is medically appropriate yet heartbreaking?

For Sadje’s WDYS

Just Take the First Step

“You don’t have to see the whole staircase; just take the first step.”
– Martin Luther King, Jr.-

my first step to book publishing was daunting. and it took years and years of hard work and dedication. i waited for the perfect timing. i’m so glad i waited. ‘cos just when i thought it would never happen; it happened.

truth is, those “dedication” and “hard work” has nothing to do with book publishing or writing at all. as you all know, i became a mom at a very young age. i dedicated all my time and energy to ensuring my children will have enough courage and strength to be out there in the world on their own. in short, i was a full-time mom for a while (a long while).

in our culture (Filipino culture), people would often question the decision of a brilliant and smart woman suddenly deciding to be a stay-at-home mom. i had people come to me and question my decision. and most of these people are the ones i didn’t expect to.

moving forward, my daughters are now mature, responsible young adults. and it’s all worth it – putting all of my dreams and ambitions aside for a long time, just to be with them all the time.

if i am to say a piece of my mind to all women out there here, it is: if you are not ready to make the necessary sacrifices and changes for your children, please don’t ever jump into motherhood yet. work on your dreams and ambitions first. fulfill your destiny if you are not ready to give it up or if you are not willing to wait.

after years of not minding what other people say, i made it… and looking at each of those who questioned and judged me for my decision..ahh ahh….well, they are still exactly where they were 20 years ago…

may you all take the first necessary step in life…be careful, though, as not to rush and aim to see the whole staircase immediately.

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All I Could Ever Be

All I Ever Could Be

Defending the poor and unfortunate

caring with a heart so compassionate

ah! a lawyer that’s what I will be

back then as a little girl I decided with glee.

Broadcasting news on TV

doing it with a mind so steady

ah! a television anchor I see

back in high school, I was so carefree.

Pouring thoughts on paper

scribbling late at night so dear

ah! a journalist I will be

back in college with free will.

Never became a lawyer really

it wasn’t my dream actually

‘Twas a childish thing to wish

no dirt to dish.

Broadcasting wasn’t even for me

‘though I had the chance to be

you see surgery on the neck

making it hard to speak.

A writer I may have always been

creating stories now and then

putting actions into words

screaming as I scribble with thoughts.

You see there’s something I missed

never imagined I’d enjoy it with bliss

caring for little souls, giving them a place to grow

motherhood is what makes me glow.

All I Ever Could Be  

All I Ever Could Be

 

 

Defending the poor and unfortunate

caring with a heart so compassionate

ah! a lawyer that’s what I will be

back then as a little girl I decided with glee.

 

Broadcasting news on TV

doing it with a mind so steady

ah! a television anchor I see

back in high school, I was so carefree.

 

Pouring thoughts on paper

scribbling late at night so dear

ah! a journalist I will be

back in college with free will.

 

Never became a lawyer really

it wasn’t my dream actually

‘Twas a childish thing to wish

no dirt to dish.

 

Broadcasting wasn’t even for me

‘though I had the chance to be

you see surgery on the neck

making it hard to speak.

 

A writer I may have always been

creating stories now and then

putting actions into words

screaming as I scribble with thoughts.

 

You see there’s something I missed

never imagined I’d enjoy it with bliss

caring for little souls, giving them a place to grow

motherhood is what makes me glow.

P.S

I am a proud mom to my four lovely daugthers

For Kate’s Friday – Fun: Offsprings