What If

(I see a woman, wondering and pondering of “what if’s”  and “what might have been’s”.)

What If

what if we didn’t meet?
what if it didn’t happen?
what if our hearts did not collide?
what if our bodies did not unite?

’twas like a movie, in full production
i was the star, and you; just being you, in anticipation
you said your “hello,” i think i said “hi” in return
i felt butterflies in my stomach
i’m sure you felt them too, i bet you did,
don’t you contradict
that’s how we first met, but
what if we didn’t meet at all
that afternoon?

we were inseparable, totally connected
adjustment wasn’t needed, it was just a word
we had endless conversations and pointless arguments by the alley, on the bench,
in the street, and even in the silence
of the church where everybody’s head was bowed for meditation
that’s how we bonded, but
what if it didn’t happen,
that afternoon?

your “i love you’s” were in many different forms
sometimes it camouflaged as the meatiest, savory Filipino version of the famous spaghetti
at times, it was in the simplest form of a rock hard candy, fresh from your pocket
sealed with a kiss, or the sweetest, 
most romantic verse written
that’s how we fell in love, but
what if our hearts did not collide,
that afternoon?

remember that beautiful late afternoon?
framed by the doorway, against the dazzling sunset, you held my hand for the first time,
then, we kissed our first kiss, ’twas magic,
’twas love, ’twas pure bliss,
your kiss felt like heaven on earth
your lips on mine felt like forever
that’s how we became one, but
what if our bodies did not unite,
that afternoon?

what if we didn’t meet?
what if it didn’t happen?
what if our hearts did not collide?
what if our bodies did not unite?

will there still be, a promise of forever?

will i ever be with you in the twilight of my life
where i could lovingly lay my head on your shoulder, from dusk ’till dawn?

For Sadje’s WDYS



I took a much needed drive
drive to nowhere,
nothing just drive
to unleash, to unravel
or maybe to find answers
to many questions I so long
struggle to acknowledge
or maybe to stumble upon
an answer to my soul’s dilemma

ah this drive, oh, this drive
if this could take me
to where you are,
exactly at the moment
my heart fully bleeds for you
my soul truly sought for you
I’d gladly take
the extra mile

‘cos baby it’s lonely
out here

For Sadje’s WDYS https://lifeafter50forwomen.com/2021/07/05/what-do-you-see-89-july-5-2021/

Your Name

and in the twilight of my life
when my world will be partially illuminated
where there is neither darkness nor light
all I ever wish to have is that single speck
of light, that single spark of joy with you
for I love you from the morn’ of my soul
’till the dusk of my breath
and I will love you even more
in the midnight of my being
when the whole world is in perfect silence
my heart screams loudly
of your name like it’s the last
word I am gonna utter
your name and yours alone



what does your “how are you?” really means
I could take on the basic route and say
“I’m fine thank you, how ‘ bout you?”
or I could break it down to
how bad my day went
with work messing up
with my stress level
at the highest peak


I could maybe tell you I’m not really well
and that I probably needed some rest
oh, well I am not sure if that’s
what you want to hear
I really am not sure
but yeah, I’m fine
I always am

what does your “hey, just dropping by” means?
I could take it easy and say
“by all means come in”
or I could break it down to
details and say,
a visit with some lovely good food
would be much appreciated
or maybe you can stay a bit longer this time
watch some movies, or simply
join me as I scribble over sweet nothings


maybe I could say, nahh
I’m really not in the mood for
social interactions right now
I just needed to be alone, be alone
with my thoughts, with my heart, with my soul
oh, well I am not really sure if that’s
what you want to hear, but please
come in by all means

and hey,

have you ever wondered what my
“how are you?” means, or what
“just dropping by” for me is?

it means

a million over “I love you”
a million over “I miss you”

how long has it been? I can’t remember
I only have my memories of you,
of you and your “how are you?”
and “just dropping by”



up unto the sky

beyond life and even time

my treasure is you.

over the night light

on the far side forever

my fondness is you.

and in afterlife

farther than eternity

my passion is you.

  • I promise to love you, eternally…

P.S. today’s poem is from my latest book “I Would Fly To Where You Are”



of nachos and french fries
of tacos and potato chips
of cheese burgers and pancakes
all of which they say,
to health and


why is it my love
that these seemingly
unhealthy, most hated 
foodstuffs by fitness and
health enthusiasts, are most
delectable, delicious when eaten with you?

tell me

why can’t I stop munching on them
like they are your lips touching mine
that they are your hands caressing
my face, with each spilled cheesy sauce
or that they are your tongue dusting
the crumbs on my blushing cheek
oh, please tell me why

until then

one large french fries for me please
with lots of cheesy garlic sauce


lets go take a long drive,
along the boulevard down to your hometown, with bright smiles
awaiting for your homecoming

and, oh dear let’s not forget
we eat these on separate occassions
and that, Mc Donalds, Jollibee
and Burger King, none of them
paid me for this poetic fast food get away

along the highway, over crossroads
and junctions with our song on the radio
your left hand on the steering wheel,
the right one fervently holding my hand


a passionate quick kiss on my lips
when the red traffic light is on

maybe then can we take
the curve somewhere?


I am home with your kiss


For Eugi’s Weekly Prompt Eugi’s Weekly Prompt – Celebration – June 17 , 2021 🥳🥂-https://amanpan.com/2021/06/17/eugis-weekly-prompt-celebration-june-17-2021-

Join me over nachos and french fries; tacos and potato chips; cheese burgers and pancakes as we celebrate Eugi’s Birthday today.

Happy Birthday Eugenia 🍟🍟🍟🍔🍔🍔

Thank You My WP Family

“The two hardest tests on the spiritual road are the patience to wait for the right moment and the courage not to be disappointed with what we encounter.” – -Paulo Coelho

I waited patiently for my time, and I was never disappointed even if waiting seemed longer than I expected.

‘Twas worth the wait. So, thank y’all my wonderful readers, followers and friends I would have not made it this far without your love and support .

My GRATITUDE always and forever

Thank You!!

“It’s the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting.”- Paulo Coelho

So, dream the biggest…

I did. And it happened.

Four poetry books in two years…

“I Would Fly To Where You Are” – Top 2 Best Selling book – Amazon (first three days of release), Number 1 trending in ebooks – Kobo.Com (first two days of release)

“Oh! Dear One” – Number 2 trending in ebooks – Kobo. Com (first 2 days of release)

“What If Snowflakes Don’t Fall In Winter?” – Number 2 trending in ebooks – Kobo. Com (first 2 days of release) and sold out paperback copies

“After Rain Skies” – Number 2 trending in ebooks – Kobo. Com (first 2 days of release)

I would forever be thankful to my WP family. Always and forever