I took a much needed drive drive to nowhere, nothing just drive to unleash, to unravel or maybe to find answers to many questions I so long struggle to acknowledge or maybe to stumble upon an answer to my soul’s dilemma
ah this drive, oh, this drive if this could take me to where you are, exactly at the moment my heart fully bleeds for you my soul truly sought for you I’d gladly take the extra mile hurry rush and run
Jco, that’s how we call you named after the famous soft and fluffy almost cake-like donut we fell in love with; friends and relatives argue about their safety around you, you are compactly-built, muscular, fast, and powerful, standing between 26 to 29 inches at the shoulder your body is sleek but substantial, and is covered with a glistening golden brown hue they are scared of you, if they only knew how kind and sweet and adorable you are, they’d love you too I swear
you won’t eat without me by your side and now that we are apart, oceans apart I know you have learned to eat by yourself but that makes me really sad
you outlived Maggi our pomeranian and Otaku our mini pinscher the passing of those two cute furries I witnessed you cry you had sleepless nights when Otaku died so we decided to get you someone your kind Macky arrived at your delight you were energetic and lively again but little did we realize that you are such a spoiler big brother gone are those days when you wanted to be fed first and gone are those days when you wanted your place to get cleaned first even in your daily bath, you wanted Macky to be the first
Now, you are aging… you no longer run as fast as you used to… nor jump high as you always do… and I don’t know what to write next… my heart is bleeding… just by the thought of it…
For Sadje’s WDY
I am reminded of my beloved dobberman JCO who passed away months ago.
I’ve traveled to many places wondered and wandered over life, love and “what could have been’s” I was once lost
lost
lost in the wilderness lost in the crowd lost in my own pursuits of “happily -ever- after” of “dreams-do-come-true”
and
somewhere along the way I was stuck, stuck and couldn’t find my way, navigating was harder than ever re-routing maybe the only way, but even then road blocks were heavier, mightier than any of my will power
until
somewhere in between heavy rains and clouded skies, beyond the horizon just beneath the rainbow where they say a pot of gold rests, where no man has ever ventured, I found, not a pot of gold
but, you
and, together we got lost over gentle kisses and sweet embraces over smiles and sighs and reliefs over pieces of thoughtful memories over love and dreams and plans
oh babe
let’s be lost together, forever in love, for it is the best gift ever
there are over a million cries in my head a million over tears withheld a million more sighs left unsaid I could cry I could scream I could let it all out for the world to hear for everyone to know that I died, I died a million deaths over a million more times I agonized, in pain, in silence but I didn’t ‘cos I’d rather not better not . . I was weeping in silence I was wailing in deep solitude I was grieving in tranquility . . I kept quiet I kept still . . until you
it’s been years and years and I can’t even recall when little Yana started begging for you to have you and to hold in our humble household
but,
mama the stubborn one never bothered to have one fear of so many myths ’bout you clouded her judgment to have or not to have
and,
looking at you pretty and cute and adorable as always in Chris’ IG feed, makes me wonder is it time maybe? to have a Luna around for little Yana, who is not so little anymore?
P.S.
Little Yana – my third daughter who’s been begging for a cat ever since
I started with just one poem (poem #1 – Alone and Lonely) and when I was about to hit “publish” my romantic muse just got my way, and another poem was conceived (poem #2 – Death)
tell me, dear, tell me more of the promises and tales, we once made of how we’ve created a world a world full of touches of laughter beyond tears a world full of joys beyond sadness and a world, where it only begins and ends with a loving thought for each other
tell me, dear, tell me more of the promises and tales, we once made while we walk along the highways and crossroads, in between random stories and out-of – this world arguments where we agreed that we don’t always agree, but we settled to end with a smile and a silent scream for love
tell me, dear, tell me more of the promises and tales, we once made in between long drives, watching sunsets and boulevards, where the world is endless and with you, dreams don’t have limits and hopes are full of possibilities and love, oh, love makes me breathless
so,
sit beside me now, let’s watch together the sun triumphantly appears over a clouded sky
then,
tell me, dear, tell me more of the promises and tales we once made
to see the world from above is like seeing it for the first time as a view from the top is always and forever will be the most amazing, the most rewarding hope- filled view one can ever have
to be on top, on top of your game on top of your career is like conquering the world for the first time, it is always and forever will be the most amazing, the most rewarding ecstatic feeling one can ever have
to see the world from above and to be on top of everything maybe amazing and rewarding but, my love, nothing beats the feeling of peacefully sitting, with your arms wrap around my body giving me warmth, comfort and solitude
so, my love, take me anywhere, let’s venture the world together take on greater heights view the world from above
and together
with our love
let’s tell the world of our love and, conquer it with great joy and pride
you are seated on deserted land in solitude, in peace, in serenity where the sun just peeked over the horizon to the east, and the heat was just enough for us to witness you almost smile
but, I wonder (as always)
what lies beneath your glorious structure? what story is hidden underneath your feet?
is it worth the value of human life and human endeavor, to unearth your hidden gem, your hidden story?
you are seated on deserted land, so quiet, so steady, so calm where the moon hung well above the horizon at night, and the air was chilly enough for us to see you almost breath
but, again, I wonder (as always)
why do we bother you, anyway? or do you even like it too?
